CARPE DIEM.

相信今天早上的新聞讓很多Sone心裡都平靜不下來,我個人也一直處於混亂之中
但在等待公司發聲明的這段時間裡,網路上各種謠言四起,讓我無心好好讀書,但卻也讓我慢慢釐清了少時對自己的真正意義

相信一些認識我的人很清楚認識少時對我而言是多麼重要的事情
因為故事太長了就不再這邊再敘述了
簡而言之,因為少時,我活了下來,我認識了生命中重要的人
對我來說,少時已經不只是一個團體.她們每一個人都對我而言都是很重要的朋友和人生導師

今早的消息一出,我擔心的是這九個孩子接下來又要接受多少與論壓力,完全沒有思考脫飯這件事
因為說實在的,我不會,不論今天是誰出這種事我都不會脫飯
我不管現在的少時是幾個人,是不是有人退出了,她們就是她們.再出團專一樣支持,鄭秀妍產品上市一樣支持(當然不是實質上…我沒錢TAT),TTS節目也支持、秀英電視劇也會看
我不知道該如何表達她們對我有多重要,如果有耐心,就看看接下來的原文吧
不是懶得翻譯,而是我對於這件事的感受已經是需要用別的語言來表達的程度了

也因此,我在此慎重宣告兩件事：
1.我仍會繼續更文,也不會停止寫任何關於鄭秀妍的同人文
2.請不要在我的痞客邦下面留什麼"不是九個人就不是少女時代"、或任何攻擊少時或鄭秀妍的話,想要宣洩自己的不滿請不要利用這個大家看文的平台,謝謝.

因為今天真的無心做其他事,又有人告訴我還是翻譯一下比較好,所以另外附上中文版的（？

以下是我正式聲明稿(?

中文：

若用”難過”兩個字來形容我對這件事的感覺的話，那就太膚淺了。

對我來說，她們已經不只是偶像或藝人了。她們是我在人生最難受、最煎熬的時候，支持我繼續下去的動力來源。一開始，吸引我的是她們甩白痴的樣子，然後漸漸的，我被她們的真誠和勤奮所打動，最後救了我的，是她們對生命的那份熱情。對她們的感覺，已經不能用感激來形容了。認識她們的這兩年半來，是我這二十幾年來最開心的兩年半。她們總能舒緩我糟透的心情。我很開心看到任何一個人在她們事業或私生活中有所成功。至今，她們仍能逗我笑，而我相信，不論過得再久，這也絕對不會改變。我喜歡看她們上綜藝節目、我會吐槽她們在表演上的錯誤或在SNS上作的評論、我甚至到現在，仍會被她們的表演震懾並感動到到說不出話。就是這些微不足道、非常不起眼的事，讓我的人生起了很重要的變化。 

去年算是我人生的轉捩點。因為她們，我認識了我這輩子最心愛的人。這也讓我更加感激我認識了她們。這位和我一樣，透過她們，得到了繼續下去的力量。因為她們，我們相知相惜，然後隨著時間過去，我們也戀愛了。即使我們對話中關於她們的話題變少了，但我們仍夢想著有一天能一起去參加一場她們的活動，親口告訴她們，特別是允西（因為我們都是以允西為主的寫手），因為她們，我們認識了彼此，而且想好好的在未來一起走下去。她們對我來說，就是這麼的重要。她們不只給了我一個原因，甚至送了我一個這麼棒的人陪伴我。我一直是個現實主義者，但她們教會了我一個道理——不管人生的路再怎麼難走，絕對不要怕去築夢和追夢。所以我很開心TTS發了新專輯;我也欣慰聽到秀英要有新戲了;我很以鄭秀妍為傲，因為她終於要實現自己的夢想——自創品牌。

 然而今早，這個世界似乎都變了。一開始我並沒有意識到是什麼變了，我很困惑，也很不解。然後漸漸的，當消息一則則開始出來了，就像每個人一樣，我慌了。然而，這個新聞實在是太不真實了。她們不是幾個月前才回歸嗎？還再一次確定了，只要她們還在活動的一天，少女時代就不會少任何一個人。我今天發這篇文章不是為了要責怪任何人。天下無不散的宴席，我想這個道理大家都懂。令我訝異的是鄭秀妍選擇以這種方式告知大家。那種語調甚至有點在指責是公司和成員們通知她，她已經被退隊了。第一時間，我自然選擇去質疑這則微博的真實性。Sone一直是個很堅強的粉絲團。今年出了這麼多事情，我們都堅持下去了，然而這件事卻沒有人想過會發生。我幾乎是毫無預警地的被賞了兩巴掌。那一瞬間，兩年半前救了我的原因似乎消失了。但我的腦子一直叫我要鎮定，而我的另一半也一直要我等官方聲明。然而我的腦子已經冒出了許多想法。讓我困擾的其實不是那則微博的內容，而是她的字裡行間所給人的感覺——被人背叛的感覺，所以我只好靜靜地等。但如果你問我的話，我在這段時間內，甚至到現在，我都不相信她們之間的感情已經不在。

 也就是在那個時候我才瞭解到，我愛的不只是少女時代這個團體，而是她們每一個人，我愛的是她們之間那堅不可摧的感情。如果你有一個超過十年以上的好友，你會瞭解到，那種一起拼命過的感情是不會被利益衝突，這種SM官方聲明中所說的原因破壞的。自從今早的大爆發之後，一直到現在，我仍相信這九個女孩。不是因為我只選擇相信我願意相信的，而是我真真切切感受過她們之前的感情是那麼的堅固。九個人再一起站在同一個舞台上的畫面可能是看不到了，這自然讓人覺得挽惜。但對我來說，她們每個人的存在，正是我當初沒有放棄的原因。她們陪我經歷了人生的高低潮，我們這些年來已經一同成長了這麼多。因此，我也不會因為這件事放棄她們。如果，離開始她最後作出的選擇，我會接受並支持和尊重這個選擇。我相信這個選擇對她來說，比任何人都還困難。因此，我並不會關閉我的部落格，也會繼續發文的。

We are indestructible, so don't let others tell you otherwise.

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 English:
 
  It would be an understatement to say that I feel sad about this incident. They have been more than just idols,or even artists to me. It is through them that I was able to find the strength that supported me through my ups and downs during my darkest times. It was their dorkiness at first, then their sincerity and diligence, and in the end, it was their energy and passion for life that pulled me out of my misery. I feel not only grateful but also deeply in debt of them for saving me. This two and a half years of knowing them has been the happiest days of my life. They could turn my frowns to smiles even by seeing one of them achieve a new goal in their careers or even, private lives. Their dorkiness still makes me laugh, no matter how time passed, and I have no doubt that they still will when I'm 40 or even 50. I laugh when they are on variety programs, I make fun of them whenever they make funny mistakes or cute comments on SNS, I feel mesmerized every time I watch their performances and I know still will in the upcoming future. These little things, these trivial things that they have created, or they have done, has had a numerous impact on my perspective for life. 

  Last year was a turning point for me, when I met the love of my life through SNSD. And that me feel even more grateful. I met a wonderful person who, like me, had find strength through these nine girls. Through them, we are bonded, and our affection towards each grew within this year. Though the talk of girls had slowly been averted to our own daily lives, it is still our dream to one day attend one of their events together to show how much we appreciate them. I dreamt of one day telling them, hopefully Yoona or Jessica(since we both write fan fictions of Yoonsic), that thanks to them, I've met someone that I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with. That is how much hope they've given me. They've given me a cause, another person for me to live for in real life. I've always been a realist, but they taught me, that regardless of whatever crappy things you're going through, don't afraid to dream BIG.That is why I was happy to hear that TTS is releasing a new album; why I was glad that Sooyoung had stared in another TV drama; why I feel relieved when I see Jessica launching her own brand, which was her ultimate dream.

  Yet this morning, I woke up to see that the world has changed. At first I felt nothing, then dumbfounded, and then realization set in. I was shocked, and I believe almost everyone else was the same.Nevertheless the news was too ridiculous to be true. Wasn't it only a few months ago that they had a comeback as nine, and claimed that it would always be the nine of them for as long as they are active? Now today, I'm not here to say who is to be blamed for this incident. People go their separate ways, that is an undeniable fact, and we experience that all the time. What was shocking was the message Jessica had left on her SNS. The tone that sort of accused the company and the other members that she was INFORMED that she was no longer a member. I, like everyone else, could not believe what I saw first. SONE has always been a strong fan base. We've survived some many ridicule incidents this year, and yet this was the one that none of us was expecting. I was caught off guard. All of a sudden, the very reason that has salvaged me two and a half years ago seemed to vanish. But my brain told me not to panic, and my significant other also cooed me and tell me to wait for the official statement. I, somehow, deep down inside me, got caught up in my own thoughts. It's not the information that she was no longer a member that bothers me. It was the way this news was presented to the public. And so I waited, yet whatever or whomever posted the messages, whatever the truth was in the end, I had never doubt for a second that their bond was broken.

  It was until then did I realize, I no longer love them only as a group, I love them as individuals as well.I love the bond they have, and if any of you have a friend that has been with you for more than ten years, you would know that this bond not be broken simply because of conflict of interests, as SM has said in the official statement.From the outbreak this morning, till this very moment, I believe in the girls, not because that I choose to believe what I want to believe, but because I KNOW the bond between them is true.It would be a great shame that fans might not be able to see them appear as nine again, but to me, they meant more than a girl group. They have each saved me, through different ways, and what happened today cannot erase that. They have been my friends that accompanied me through ups and downs in life, and though them and with them, we grew up. And if, she has eventually decide to leave , I will accept and respect her choice, which no doubt would be one of the hardest decisions she'll ever make, I believe. Therefore, for the remaining eight and Jessica, I'm here to stay. And so my blog will stay open, and I will continue to write fanfics of Yoonsic and other couples. 

We are indestructible, so don't let others tell you otherwise.

2014.9.30